Learning to grow

Every step we take from where we fall is where we learn and
that's what makes us who we are.

Being laughed at for being a quitter by others is nothing compared
to being disappointed at yourself for being one. In life,we choose
to become who we want to be and sometimes we regret..isn't it obvious..
be careful what you wish for. I wished I could be this and I could be that
but stepping into those shoes is what makes a whole lot of difference.

Trying to be something you've never been is different from actually knowing
how it is to be that something. Forgive me for the blabber but the brain's so
clogged that words just pour out like the blood oozing from a stabbed person. Weird metaphor? I think so too..

Back to that pair of orange elegant floral top..She walks wearing that beautiful top
with a pair of black shorts. Yes it does match..but something catches her eyes..She stops..a beautiful pair of white pants. She pauses. Walks in and tries..shits..she hates white pants but it actually looks good on her..and it's perfect with the orange top..She happily strolls out, with full contentment..it didn't cost her much..she probably wouldn't buy it, but it was perfect for her. What you don't like may not be bad for you and what you've never tried may just be a perfect match. Which part of life? Go figure!

It seems like only yesterday

It seems only like yesterday when I finished high school..
went through a living hell in National Service, entered College
as mommy held my hand..graduated..worked for daddy..and entered SEGi..
dreading every moment of it until I met a couple of good people..=)

Right now..I'm exactly 9 hours away from starting my first official job..
well..working with daddy does not count!I wouldn't have gotten this job..or
rather have the courage to try this job if it wasn't for peanut butter and jelly..=)

I'm super nervous!!!ugh...=_='

Life flashes before you, and the next thing you know you're moving on to another phase in life..It's hard to look back and wish that you could turn back time, cause it can never happen..what you can do is look forward and make the best of what comes your way..

Knowing the bumpy roads is what makes you who you are.
A new day tomorrow, a new phase in life and a new smile.=)

Mismatched

Wow..you see that beautiful orange top..elegant.floral..you just can't resist..you get it off the shelf..ahhh...*bliss* you walk again and from the corner of your eye something catches your attention..you turn to see..Oh!What a beautiful pair of turquoise pants. A must-get. You get it off the shelf, thinking the orange floral feminine top would match well with those stylish punk-styled turquoise pants. Contented..you happily head home although you just spent a fortune.

At home you throw everything on the floor, quickly dig through the pants and the top..strip and slip in that new top and pants. You turn excitedly to face the mirror in hope that you'll see an amazing reflection. You pause. The smile disappears from the face.You spent a fortune..to look good..but the effect speaks otherwise.

You hold your head down..A beautiful top, an awesome pants...but it sure doesn't go well.*broken* Things can look good..or maybe even awesome..two beautiful things can look awesome together or..it can look like a piece of crap. Just like life.

Fairytales..

Fairytales are sugar coated reality..but..i still believe in 'em..I just wished upon a shooting star that one day..some day..there will be a prince charming to swipe me off my feet.

I'm a simple girl..who just needs four things from my prince:love me..care for me..respect me..and only have eyes for me..am I asking for too much?sighs..maybe..

However,judging from today's society..Fairytales are long gone dreams..But..I'm like a little girl who believes in true love..prince charming and happy ever afters..If I may be a sucker for love and a fool for bliss..so be it..Who knows, sometimes dreams do come true.=)

Do not cross THIS LINE!

Religion is a very sensitive topic even up to now..
Different religions have different ways of teaching but,
they have only one vision: to instill good moral values into an individual.

However, many people take religion out of context and try to convert every
one they see on the street..ugh..it's good to be religious..but not an extremist.
It's because of these few rotten apples that people stay away from religion..

We will never know which religion came first..whether it's the Catholic, Buddhism,
Hinduism, Islam or Jewish..dan lain lain..WE WILL NEVER KNOW OK? So we should all pray the way we're comfortable with..or for those who don't believe in God can just ignore the whole God thing. Just do whatever you like as long as you do not hurt others.=)

I believe in God, and I'm a Catholic. I pray my way and you pray yours, I won't convert you so please leave me alone..stop condemning my God because it's a stubborn fool talking..so please do not stereotype me as "you all Christians like to covert everyone you see.." Use those eyes to see..because not everyone is the same. Thank you very much!

The little girl behind mommy's skirt is growing up..

Being who I am,
The one who needed mommy to hold my hand when I first entered kindergarten to primary school to high school and even college.=/

Another chapter in life closes and another begins..
Nervousness shows from the sweaty palms every time I think about it..
I'm starting work..officially..an excitement overwhelms my little heart..
Yet..i fear the thought of starting my first day..It's just like the first
interview-first day of school-fear of making friends..I guess the fear of
talking to people has always been a part of me.=/

*Nervousness*

I'm starting work in exactly two days..brr...the thought of it send shivers
down my spine..I don't really understand what I'm nervous about but the fact
that I AM nervous..it's kind of frustrating..hehe..I told mommy to walk me to
my car on Monday and make me breakfast..She just smiled and hugged me..she says
i act like 10..yeesh..=/ but she offered to fetch me to work..=)

In life, we have to go through stages after stages to continue progressing..that's where the wiser man learns from the wise man..I want to be that wiser man and keep learning until the day i go 6 ft under..=) Yes, I want to be a kid...but I can be a big baby..still climb on daddy..and cuddle with mommy..but at least i'm a progressing big baby..

*Everything is going to be alright..*
*finger crosses*

Pigcess Day

Woke up in the morning with a raw tummy...
Must be due to the diarrhea I had last night..but
that didn't stop me from spicy food..hehe..A day without
spicy food is like..asking me to eat without a tongue..Everything
is tasteless, yes chili is bad for complexion and my skin has deteriorated
since the past few years but really.chili is my drug. I need to have it every
time I eat..without fail..

Went to do my x ray..hmmm..my back bone must be a snake.=/
curvylicious..hehe..=p

Then, went to lammeya to have prawn me..*spicy-less..*
I asked for more "sambal" and the really rude Myanmar cashier came up to me
and asked me rudely, you sure u can finish?? I gave you one plate of sambal already!
I looked at her in disgust and pointed the plate of sambal I had already finished..Annoyed at me..she took 10 minutes to give me.."cold sambal" from the fridge which did not look like the prawn mee sambal at all..yeesh..i asked her what it was and she said she didn't heat it up!grrrr....but the difference between the prawn mee sambal and the one she gave me is that one has oil and one doesn't. Any idiot who have eaten prawn mee would know that the prawn mee sambal is oily..She came back with the dried one..microwaved and burnt..i didn't dare touch it and in conclusion, I soaked it with soya bean..=)

Besides that annoying day,
I went to buy baby pram for my darling levy boy..haha..as weird as it may seem..I enjoyed pushing the stroller in pyramid..One thing missing? A baby of course..I wanted to steal a baby..=p super kiddy me!Sometimes I act like..2+3..=-='

Today was another pamperlicious day with full scale manja-ness..I should train all pigs in piggy-kingdom to be manja too..=)