The Good-News Bad-News Day

You know how sometimes..
Everything just goes your way on a particular day..
Everything just falls into place and you get everything
you want?And suddenly,just only after a few hours..
Everything is taken back from you..Pulled me like a ton
of bricks..You loose everything you want at this moment..

Yeap..
That's what happened to me today..
I don't know if it's a good thing or bad thing to not be
part of the cabin crew life..well yeah..I did everything I could
to get in..I did..and everything was good..AND...I failed my medical..
Perfect ain't it..to make matters worse..I turned down a job because
of AA and..I have issues with my senior project and have to decide if I
should kill myself or two others..Fucked up ain't it?I'm not the kind that
believes in the dog eat dog world..yeah..so..that's not one hell of a + point
for me..

Well..I don't know what to do..or what to say..or at this point..how to
react to all this drama..staying at home is suffocating me right now because
I can't cry and talk about it because in the first place..mom and dad never agreed
for me to be a part of the flying life.

Well..A bad week..Yes..but that's not stopping me from looking forward..life has
its ups and downs..and there's no time to waste dwelling on the pain.

~Don't cry when it rains, but smile because it takes the rain away then you'll be seeing rainbows ahead of you.~

Speechless

Don't know what to say..

I'm pretty bored being all stuck at home..
Lifeless.Meaningless.Lost.

I've been job hunting...A LOT..
Had many offer letters thrown at me..But
mostly all paid too low..
A couple of companies offered me RM 2k and above..
but I turned it down..Don't know why I did it but I did it..
*sighs* A feeling came over me..I mean..I kindda know it's not
the JOB I want..and I'm not into job hopping..It's bad for the resume.

I can't find a low-paying far job because..Daddy's too old for me
to be asking him to sponsor petrol/toll..and I have commitments..Loads
of them..*sighs* But Mom and Dad are asking me to take it slow..Don't rush
into it..*sighs* Sadly..I can't stand the thought of being jobless..I mean
I've been jobless for almost 2 months..I mean not exactly cause I'm doing my
senior project..but STILL..I need to earn...grrrr...
and...yeah...my scoliosis just pretty much ruin my chances of getting a job that
I was 1cm away from getting..I mean..I got in..but...sighs..medical check-up sucks.

Dear Lord,

Thank you for taking away our sins and delivering
us from evil..Thank you for granting me the strength
and courage to do many positive things..
Please grant me a high paying job..please...=(

Amen..

Baby Blooms..

Yesterday...an excited little boy came into the world..He was due end of next month..but this little boy couldn't take it anymore..He gave his mommy one good kick before mommy was wheeled into surgery...A future footballer?Possible.=)

Baby Levy came into this world weighing 2.1 Kg..He was really tiny for he was only 7months ++ old..He came in time to watch the world cup if I should say so myself..=)



You see..Baby Levy is a story of a true mother's sacrifice..My aunt Jo is a woman in her 40's who failed many relationships in love..which in time made her an independent career woman..She finally found love in her early 40's..got married to a Jewish man who sadly could not step foot in our country..Because of her love for her father and husband..She had to travel in between Malaysian and the Philippines...staying in each country for two months..

As time passed, her dream to join mother hood came true but sadly, there were complications..I don't know whether it's genetic but aunt Jo has multiple fibroids inside her uterus which endangered her life during pregnancy..As the months passed..a 3 month preggers Aunt Jo looked like she was in her 6 month of pregnancy..She often broke down because she feared for her life..as 10 years ago a palm reader told her that she would have everything she wants..money and career..and also a family..but she'll die before she reaches 50 (or so the palm reader told her)..She was very much afraid that Baby Levy would be a motherless child..She often cried during the pregnancy..left journals for her child and pictures so that he may see his mother if something were really to happen..

But thank god with the grace of God..both Baby Levy and Mommy Jo are safe..

Morning Boredom

I went for an interview yesterday..first interview I had where I was
laughing with the interviewer..hehe..=)
Well..although the conclusion=I am still jobless..but I really enjoyed
the interview yesterday..I mean it's not everyday you see two people
who've just met laughing like they've known for a bit..Well..And i'm glad..
or rather I can feel my self-confidence boosting up..=)

Anyways..besides my interview yesterday..
Oh crap!I just forgot what I wanted to say...
Hmmmms...Oh ya..Had an argument with Ak yesterday..I realized that whenever
we're angry..anger from within just bursts out like a Volcano..and Trust me..
It becomes very very destructive..*sighs*

We argued over so many things..I guess there's this tension between us where we're
so annoyed with each other.She with my temper and Me with her Bitchiness..Hmmmss..
I asked her to sleep in the other room and she went to..crying obviously..5 mins later..Gosh!This sounds so lame..but we were hugging and apologizing to each other..=_='

Lame?Yeah..pretty much...=p

Has it ever occurred to you that humans brutality can be so..*lost for words*
Cruel is a word too mild to use on humans brutality...God made humans with brains
so that we can have the wisdom to make earth a better place to live in..so that we can
leave that there may be a path for our future generation to walk in..but the brutality of man kind has turned everything upside down..God's gift of wisdom and feelings have been misused yet again..*sighs*



*pics courtesy of http://www.wspa.ca/latestnews/2009/balis_dogs_at_risk_again.aspx*



pics courtesy of http://stopanimalabuse.blogspot.com/2010/06/mass-strychnine-poisoning-of-dogs-in.html*

There is a new poison called Strychnine poison..where inhuman men shoots the dogs with this poison..at first the dogs runs away..but in about 10 minutes..their muscles hardens and they start limping with 2 legs..and before you know it..they stop..fall to the ground and gasp for air..for about...heads up...2 to 3hours...and die. The liquid paralyzes them and all they can do is watch as their killers kill their friends and family..as they suffer a scrutinizing pain while their organs fail on them..bit by bit..the pain so intense but all they can do is lie on their stomachs and weep in their hearts...

What these beasts forget is animals have feelings too..they're living things..and even if the population of dogs which causes rabies is out of hand..they could consider giving these dogs a fast death..can't they see for themselves..what if it was them?Is humanity too blinded by selfishness? God created humans for a reason to make this world a better place..seems like humans are taking these out of context..the road to righteousness has been blinded by men's selfishness..greed and gluttony..I'm no saint..but I still have a heart.




Would you have the heart to torture such beautiful creation of mankind?

Vietnam..the land of dust..dirt..and dong...

Just got back from Vietnam a couple of days ago...
Seriously..I doubt i'll ever go back there again..
Traffic there is like suicide..everything is dirty..and
even the bottled water is not clean..=_='





Safety is of their last priority I think..=/
Going there though became an eye opener for me..I now realize how
lucky I am..I mean this is a super under developed country where the wire
poles hangs down in a bunch and the poles go all crooked.. Beggars everywhere
and people there look very stressed out..you can see fine lines on their faces..

We went to the war museum..and saw things that I never would've imagined..
I mean I know the picture of war is never beautiful..but this was far more than
I imagined..I picture the battle of humans killing humans to be stabbing..gun shots
and beheading..but this was different..You could find pictures of the soldiers proudly holding the head of a man whose body has been de-boned..and to mention you can see poor helpless people watch as their young child of only a few years gets disemboweled..*sighs* There were even two deformed fetus of a full grown baby who died..apparently the fetus was a present from uncle orange by Americans..*sighs* The army can really fuck up your mind at times...=(

We visited a lot of places..even the presidents house.. something spooky overwhelmed me and left shivers down my spine when I was in the under tunnel..I don't know why and I'm not the only one who said it but there was the smell of blood..It kindda freak me out..especially this passage way...It was spooky and it made me run..=/ the feeling is unexplainable..



Vietnam became an eye opener for me to the leftovers of war..I mean..poor Vietnam..*sighs* but what can't kill you only makes you stronger..I won't say I didn't have fun there..There were times I did..but it was a great eye opener for me and somehow..I thank god for the life he has given me.

Vietnam!!

I'm in Vietnam nowwww!Just landed not too long ago..thank god there's wifi..but i don't know why i can't access to facebook..sobs..-_-'
Anyways..while we were in the cab..Mom and Kan Ma Ma were talking bad bout the cab driver and the vietnamese people..saying they look so poor..and the taxi driver is rough and etc..and i told them to stop..i mean..just in case he can understand cantonese..Guess wat!!He does understand cantonese..swts..anyways..will update my trip soon!