Irony

Chinese New Year,
always the best time to of the year to celebrate...
cash, gambling and great food...

I was always looking forward for this time of the year..
It's better than Christmas i thought to myself...

But this year,
it's different...you're not here..
that smile to greet me at the door is no longer there...
all that's left are the memories of you,
the kindness in your face,
the love that you spread around with your presence..
is no longer here.

NOW...
it's not the same without you,
I miss you, can you hear me?
I want you back...do you know?
Hold my hand, smile as we eat, laugh as we joke,
just one more time.

Entering what was suppose to be your house..
now filled with a bunch of fakers who have robbed you of your wealth,
Strain you through your health and broken your spirit as you lived..
yet, with your kindness when you were breathing you forgave them..
you swallowed the pain and gave us your best.

You were the best of everything,
you were the perfect figure of man kind,
though anger fills my heart when i see those who have hurt you,
i find it easy to forgive now,
through the kindness you have shown,
the love you have shared,
the power you have given,
you thought me how to forgive,
how to live a beautiful life,
how to love and how to appreciate,

It's so hard to forget that you're gone,
feeling that you're still there,
living with us,
breathing our air,

Your absence have thought me how to live,
how to grow from where i am,
how to be beautiful inside.

Though missing you every moment causes my heart to bleed,
I still want to as it has given me the courage to do many things,
To be that beautiful person that you are,
To love and not to hate,

I don't want to forget you.