Closing the books for 2010, Opening a new one for 2011.

From the year 2009 to 2010,
things haven't been exactly smooth for me...
I was struggling to graduate out of college, hoping to
come out from the shit hole, I was dating a dude who was not worth my time
and up to today, I never knew why I didn't leave him earlier..My best
friend..oh well..was no longer best friends anymore..
Come 2010, I was hoping that things would change and I found myself
struggling to look for a proper job. I landed a job in Grey advertising, thinking
that I would eventually like it there, I didn't. I left within 3 months.

Towards the last few months of 2010, things started taking a turn and I'm not complaining now.Here's the list:
1. I got rid of rubbish.
2. I found someone who is closest to my heart. (who can make me smile through fb chat. =P)
3. I joined FHM and i'm one of the finalist.
4. Met two great girls. (Cherrie and Eshia)
5. Found that a long lost friend, can actually be the closest friend you may hardly meet, but who will always watch you back. (Avril)
6. The sweetest friend to me who I will always watch his back and I know he will always watch my back..(eg; shouting at the white guy for pushing me) a.k.a Vincent.
7. It may be bad to some, but to me I'm happy cos I'm vain! I can fit into XS! yessss~!!
8. Meeting more new people, going around and acting my age.
9. Being my manja-spoiled-pampered-self towards my boyfriend and he's ok with it.
10. I write for chinks now, but look! I gotta start somewhere. =)

I would say, the year 2010 is ending on a good note and I'm hoping the year 2011 will be an awesome one. If fate decides to put me to another test, I know I can handle it because the people behind me are a strong bunch.

Besides closing the books on 2010, this blog is written for a special someone...

We are two very different people, who would not have been together. But we meet when it comes to the four most important things in a relationship. Love. Understanding. Respect. Trust.

To the boyfriend who has been there for me all the time, through career, break ups (where do you find a guy who likes you and can help you on this, and he wasn't even dissing the ass hole.), technical and emotional problems..we've been together for almost 6 months. From the moment you stepped back when you had the chance to kiss me, you caught my heart. As a man, you respected me as a woman, as a friend, you respected me as a good friend and as a boyfriend, you respected me as your lover. It's not everyday you can have someone to be your boyfriend/best friend/shopping buddy/pampering-daddy.

I love the way you stroke my hair to sleep and take care of me when I'm sick. You have a firm yet gentle touch that promises to keep me safe yet handle me with care. You put me before yourself. I love the way you sing to me, and make everything okay. I was crippled when you found me,and now you've helped me up and I can stand tall. When we were sitting on the bleachers, you told me about the bucket of shit vs. the bucket of sweets and it is very much my life. I had to go through shit before I found you, and it is when I found you I was able to taste the sweet. =)

Here are some highlights of 2010:

Thanks for the Christmas Pain!

Went over to Gardens, Sunway Pyramid with the family on Christmas Eve. Bad call..It spoiled my whole Christmas appetite!

My sis ordered Fried Kuey Teow which took about 25 minutes to come and mom ordered some bread thingy (sandwich) which took 30 minutes to come.. I orderd Curry Laksa which did not arrive after 45 minutes until I wanted to cancel the order.

The first taste of the laksa= SWEET!
I thought nothing of it since I was hungry but when I was having my 4th bite..
I saw that the soup was powdery.It was also thick and paste-like. Disgusting!
Looking at it made me want to puke. As hungry as I was, I couldn't continue eating that disgusting bowl of paste-like-shit!

Through enough, 20 minutes later my tummy ached and I had diarrhea! It screwed up my whole Christmas Appetite.I would say the best thing there would be the water. Other than that, don't go there!

It's not everyday I can find someone like YOU!

When I was a little girl,
I genuinely wish I could find someone who would sing me to sleep,
Brush my hair and kiss me good night. Love me, respect me and understands me unconditionally..Put me before him..but I thought it was all a little fairy tale.
So i kept myself in my own dreamland. That is, not until I found you.
You were different in every possible way. Like guys would say, I'm different
but that's a whole lot of bullshit! You WERE different. From the moment our
lips brushed, you stepped back knowing my limits. Enough said.I'm in ♥.

Officially we've been together for a month or less..unofficial..5 months going on to 6. We've spent every day together for the past 4 months, and even still we don't see each other everyday now, it's still at least 4 days a week..minimum!and..we go home talking on the phone for hours. I told you once, Valentines is not only for a day, it can be everyday. And you've showed me that it can be everyday. ♥

Whenever we argue, my heart cracks a little. But you make it all better and before I know it, it was as if nothing happened. It's like you've got magic powers or something.I don't know how you do it but you just do it. ♥

I love the way we fit so well, sometimes it's almost unbelievable how we fit. Trust was an issue but somehow, you managed to pull me closer. Though I'm scared, but if you never do try, you would never know. ♥






I love every moment spent with you, because those are the moments where I can truly be myself. ♥ ♥ ♥




It's kind of sad for you when you ask me what I want for Christmas and I send nothing but riddles to you..I'm gonna be truthful in a way I'm gonna add a little twist. I'm so happy with you. It is small, round and something I wished for. So all I want for Christmas is YOU! Go figure!
♥ ♥ ♥

A little guess from the colors of the rainbow

Little by little as raindrops fall from the
leaves of yesterday, the rain has stopped
and reflection from the golden light shines upon
the droplets of water..all that's seen are pretty
colors of yesterday, today and tomorrow.

The little moments of silver linen, cotton candy and
the the rainy sky..that makes it all worth it..

Come what may, little by little you see to nothing but
what you would call little pinklets in the air..
Touches your skin and you look, whatever it may be..
The pinklets of today is tomorrow's rainbow.

Close your eyes. Make a wish. It's in your heart.

Reaching for the bucket of sweets.

Someone once told me, to reach out
for that bucket of sweets, it takes a lot of
courage to empty that bucket of shit...

Life's not that simple,
You don't just want something and get it..
Sorry...even if you're a millionaire..There are
somethings money can't buy (eg; getting a chick to love
you instead of your stash of greens)

Digging through that bucket of disturbing crap is
kindda..oh well..crappy..at times it makes you want to give up..
till you see that very first colored candy.

Life's a bucket of shit..but if you dig hard enough..You'll reach
the candy..Yes, the candy may be covered in crap..but here's the story..
At the end of the day..that shit-covered-candy-wrapper may have crap all over it..
But..open the wrapper, and you've got yourself a yummylicious candy..That crap you
dug through is just to remind you.."you've came a long way.."

The earlier months of the year has been pretty crappy..
But not till now....Something's been going pretty well..Let's
have a re-cap:

1. 4.0 CGPA for my Senior and Special Project
2. Awesome new friends: Vincent, Sheila, Iylia, Cherrie & Eshia
3. Awesome loyal friends: Avril, Wai Nee, Christopher
4. I'm an official Graduate!!!
5. FHM; GND Contestant No.01
6. I stood up for myself! =)
7. Started off doing copy writing (which is awesome although it's temporary)
8. Have been learning a lot from people I've met.
9. A new and adorable baby cousin!
10. And Last but not least..I've found A Best Friend, A Lover, A Teacher, A Man..Someone I would call the person I LOVE...



Some of the happy moments so far:

Sometimes

Sometimes I feel so helpless..
I wish there was something I could do,
To put that big bright smile on your face..
Just the way you put that big bright smile on my face.

The moments that I look at and tell myself..This life is so worth living.

It's the depressing times that you look at everything and
wonder, what are you living for? From pain, to heart aches, lies,
deaths and breakups, sadness that hits you one after another
time..You wonder why, what went wrong, WHY ME?

A silly question we all ask ourselves when the faults in fact
lies with us..A vulnerable little kitten, in a land of Goblins and evil
leprechauns ..Is that risk even worth taking?

I took the risk to seek, to live a life I call my fairy tale..
and though through the pains and the sadness..between those teary eyes
I did find something..And that something that makes me look and say..
This is the reason why life is worth living. Sincerity.

The never ending story..

I remember clearly watching a show called the
never ending story..A fantasy land of magic..alien-like
creatures and a giant dog..or whatever you called that..
I guess they called it the never ending story because there
was almost no ending..if i remembered clearly...

Like the story of a little girl...
Who had all good things come to an end..
But what happens otherwise just doesn't end..
She sits by the corner of the window..
Looking for the little diamonds of hope..
Waiting for a never ending question..with obviously no answer..
When will these tired shoulders rest..? Smiles of tomorrow
flows with the never ending sea..as if these smiles would ever last.
Nothing lasts forever.

Possibilities.

How often do you see the other side of the rainbow..
How far can you reach out and touch the sky of glimmering
candies..How possible is it to sleep on a bed of sliver linen
cotton candy..The only possibility is through a word.

The little sillies of Tale

Living on the deck waiting to see the wondrous tomorrows.
It's not that it's like this but somehow, someway it seems like that..
The little sillies of tales builts in that little patch that's sewn on
that favorite outfit of yours..You close..breathe and pretend nothing ever
happened..It's just like the life of the enchanted..only this villain..
lives inside of you..the little heart that beats as long as you live...
You can't live without it..yet you can't live with it..It's like that itch
you can't get rid of it..You thought sewing that piece of cloth onto the torn
patch would take it all away..mend that torn up jeans, but it did..only for awhile..why would a torn patch mean so much..? Only because nothing is ever
replaceable. That little patch is just temporary..it's just a matter of embracing
it while it's there..and keeping the memories of yesterdays in a little box.

Tell tale sillies.

Her life is a book of tell tale sillies..
A little book of misconception..or rather just a little book of little tales..she whispered with the wind..like how the wind misses the sound of those shivery bushes..or rather how the wind misses the cow?it's very simple..really..just like sugar tastes different from cotton candy..both sweet..but different.It's kind of like that torn shirt you love..you try to patch it up with a different cloth that you think you like.It's not the same..you still like that torn shirt of yours.

Broga

I went to Broga again..with
my two lil'll boys..=)
Had a hard time walking in the rain through those
slippery roads, dark paths, painful leaves cuts and
smelly shitty palms..but I MADE IT UP THE THIRD HILL!

This walk somehow was more tiring..I had shaky feet..
Heard my back crack twice as i jumped..hehehe...
Vincent was a bit woozy..cut his fingers and had shit
on his palm..eewww...So..who was the Hero? Of course
Kiiiinneth..=) He's got great stamina..especially for a smoker..=_='

The climb was harder than i remembered..a lot more..tougher..
I could feel my the bones on my spine grinning against each other..
at one point I thought I was going to black out due to the pain..
But..I know I couldn't..I want to finish this damn thing and no way
am I going to finish it half-way..and I didn't..Well..the after effect
was horrible..everywhere was aching..but everything was worth it..I liked
the pain..because..I guess..I had a beautiful photographic memory and also
a self-accomplishment thingy that made it worth it..and I'm looking forward
to do it soon..and try Tabur too..=) The little boy in me has been unleashed..=)

Little Red Riding Hood

and the wolf ate her.

All she does is cries and whispers..
Please take this pain away.

Icy-Cold

It's been awhile since I spoke to you bloggy..
Ugh..Today was one of those days..
I had to rush my blardy assignment that is due
tomorrow..the dammm computer had to like shut down for
4 freaking times before listening to me!Ugh..I felt
like hitting the computer into pieces..I kept banging the table
cos I was indescribably angry...Thank God I saved my work
like every 15 minutes..Amen to that!



Today was an icy cold day..hated it..but I gotta look at it this way..It can be warm everyday..there must be balance..right?

Anyway..thank god i finished it..all I have to do is my presentation slides..
hehehehe...but the thought of presenting in front of sooo many lecturers freaks me out..Oh ya..I officially got a real proper job..not gonna say where first..will just
see how it goes..Am sooo starting on the 16th..and I can dress up for this job..hehehe..yipppeee...me loves to dress up...I'm just in one of those emo modes today..tearing up for unexplainable reasons..usual me..but come to think of it..memories of those rainbow sugar bedded cotton candy sometimes diverts the attention.



You'll be seeing a lot of me once Padma's assignment is over bloggy woggy..