This girl.

Once upon a time,
there was a little chubby girl.
She grew up in a world, where people
loved to pinch her face, hug her and kissed her.

As she grew, so did her chubbiness.Unlike before, people
didn't love her as much. She was such a big frumpy thing who was
such a clumsy bumsy that would either break things or hurt people
when their playing because she doesn't know her strength.

She one day realized that every time in swim class, she was the last. In gym
class, she was the last. When playing catching, she would always
become the catcher (basically who gets caught becomes the catcher)
and no one would replace her.

When she was 10, it was then did she understood that FAT means UGLY.The first person who told her she was Fat was her aunt. The second, her mom.
She was called Fat, teased at school and home. Her sisters made her run around and chase them because they knew she couldn't run. She noticed too, that she was bigger than her sisters in every way, some friend even called her a Transvestite because she was big bone(big bone comes from excessive food consumption since a young age) Given rude remarks from family members,"you should give some food to your sisters, their so thin..you're too fat...you can't catch me 'cause you're too FAT!...She's so round..." It pierced her heart.

She brushed it off as daddy hugged her and said, these are baby fats. It'll
go away. At 13, the rude remarks became more hurtful. Mom often reminded her on the way to loose weight, what to eat and so on. This made her even more sensitive. Then, she decided to go through,PROJECT DIET.

She went on project diet for years. Trying not to eat,to not eat rice, to drink
only soya bean, to consume only water, all which showed results but she was too
blind to see. As the years passed, she grew normal, thinking she was still fat,
she carried on. Mommy saw the problem and tried to rectify the damage done since 8 years old. But it was too late.

When she was 18, the years of project diet turned health hazardous. She was not
only boobless, she grew lumps too. She underwent two surgeries before she turned 20 which left a deep scar.

However, the only scar that she remembers, is the scar FAT. Up to today she believes that she is fat though all says she's thin. She can't control what she thinks and how she thinks of herself. The word FAT breaks her heart. Sometimes she feels like she's drowning in her own imagination. She wants to believe she's not fat, but she just don't know how. She regretted project diet as she was teased with something new. "Airport" because she was boobless.

People thinks she wants attention by calling herself fat, little do they realize that she lost her self-esteem in the battle of self recognition.I know this girl.